walking away is both easy & hard to do. easy in that the simpliest things can cause ppl to walk away & hard bc its not what we want to do but what you have to do. your suppose to be able to work through the heartache & still be there for one another in order to make the relationship stronger. sometimes fighting for love gets hard. it seems pointless at times.
how do you walk away from six yrs??? i tried. im so used to him that i feel incomplete without him. part of me's missing when hes not here. its crazy cause im the one who made it this way but i dont even think i can deal with it anymore. things changed & honestly it'll never be the same again. right now it jus seems best to let go but /we've been too strong for too long & i cant live without you babe/...im lying to myself i aint going nowhere but somethings gotta give!
/we dont see eye to eye no more. i know love aint fair, i know it aint perfect....a part of me's scared a part of me's searching./
/for w.e. might of been, & all that it never was, w.e i couldnt see, & all that i didnt want/
as long as your trying ima try...love.
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
being pregnant changes everything
although its a blessing or w.e. i hate being prego
i get kicked outta my sleep
wake up @ 3am to go to the bathroom or eat
no drugs when im sick wtf!?!?
big prenatal pills, iron pills, and vitamin d pills daily
this basketball sittin under my shirt gets in the way
no longer get gifts for myself everythings blue and all babified lol
but i mean all for my bundle of joy =) yayyyy me lol
def has it perks too
greatest excuse for school---drs excuse for months
i can eat w.e. i want whenever n not feel bad---all the icecream in the world
parents give me w.e. i want /they always did but now its easier/
i dont have to do anything at home they treat me like im handicap which is cool!
boobs finally get bigger!
but i cant lie im def excited for him to get here !!!
its crazy being in school while pregnant
eveyone knows ur buisness but its cool
everyone stares at my stomach
ask dumb questions like are you pregnant? while staring at my stomach
random ppl touch my stomach
wtf im not the first preganant person in the world
me n mr j since then
1 day is cool ily & roses
next day its hell
thinking bout saying goodbye to 6yrs...
decided to stay in school next semester
cant wait to party with my girls again it'll never be the same though =(
*six months & counting*