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Saturday, September 5, 2009

im pregnant.

sooo i recently found out im pregnant. SHOCKER. def wayyy unexpected. at first i had no idea what to do. i felt like i had no options other than abortion. i was afraid to go to my parents because of the dissapointment i had caused. i felt like i could jus deal wit it alone and be done with. as time went on it got harder and harder. i needed my family. i finally decided to talk to them. it was tough at first, of course they were angry, but they were there. my mother told me what ever decision i made I would have to live with it forever, no matter what decision it would change my life forever, and that no matter what she'd be there. i went to the doctor and got an ultrasound. i saw my baby, i saw the heartbeat, i saw the life inside of me. i cried at the thoughts of killing my baby. every life deserves a chance. its my actions that placed me in this situation so now its time to be responsible. relationships with some ppl have changed some for the better some for worse. at the end of the day everthing happens for a reason and god wouldnt put us through something we couldnt handle. i cant worry about anyone but my child now. guess im another teen statistic. taking a negative and making it into a positive. my baby will be here march 28 and i cant wait. hope i have a boy...